[Akiyama Kiro] モノローグ・Monologue [ENG/ROM/JP]

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モノローグ・Monologue

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Lyrics, Music, Vocals: Akiyama Kiro

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That face I don’t know
Have you been hiding it from me since the start?

Just from talking a little bit, I understood, and grew curious
Wanting to know all the things I don’t, is it in truth
Because I can’t believe anything at all?

We’re carrying sadness as we go on
Covered with nothing but scars, what lies before us? Tell me

Two in misery, one in happiness
The overflowing wishes too, have spilled out over our palms
We’re not holding on to anything anymore, so
Why is it that we’re dreaming

Even if I could pretend to have forgotten
It doesn’t wither like flowers do, so
In the room of a single person, wondering hundreds of times, “What if…”
I’ve been thinking harder than when two of us were here together

I don’t want to touch those memories like this any longer
Even those days we spent together, I’m questioning them too
We’re fools, both of us,
It’s just that we didn’t have the courage
To keep carrying happiness and sorrow on our backs

Even if this is fate, we’re so full of unease and suspicion that
Even if we blame it on ourselves, I’m sure we can’t be happy
The words “Only after you lose it then you’ll realise”
The more we grew unhappy and listened to them, the more we wouldn’t realise

Two in misery, one in joy
I was struggling, not being able to do even that
There were only a few things we understood about each other, but
Even so, the days don’t fade because

If you were hiding all your sadness
Then I know that from the start we would not have been attracted to each other
May the number of wounds we inflicted on each other
Change into your day to day
May they change into your day to day

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Kanji
僕の知らないその顔は
最初から隠していたの？

ほんの少し話をして分かった気になっていた
知らない事ばかり知りたくなるのは
本当は何も信じられないからなのか

僕たちは悲しみを背負い続けて
傷だらけのその先に一体何があるの？ 教えて

悲しみは2つに 喜びは1つに
ありふれた願いも零した手のひらが
掴めるものなんてもう何もないのに
僕らはどうして夢を見てしまうんだろう

忘れたフリをすることができても
花のようには枯れないから
一人の部屋 たらればを何百回吐き散らかして
二人で居たあの時より思い詰めている ずっと

思い出はこのままもう触れたくない
過ごした日々すら疑ってしまう
馬鹿だな僕らは
不幸も幸せも背負っていく勇気が
まさになかっただけだ

運命すらこんなにも疑惑と不安に満ちているから
自分のせいにしてみても楽になれるはずないよ
「失った後にしか気付けない」という言葉を
嫌になるほど聞いてなお気付けなかった ずっと

悲しみは2つに 喜びは1つに
それすら出来ずにもがいていたね
分かり合える事なんてほんの少しだけど
それでも日々が色褪せないのは

悲しみの全てを隠していたなら
最初から僕らは惹かれ合っていないと分かるから
二人でつけ合った傷の数が
あなたの日々に変わりますように
変わりますように

Romaji
boku no shiranai sono gao wa
saisho kara kakushite ita no?
Honno sukoshi hanashi o shite wakatta ki ni natte ita
shiranai koto bakari shiritaku naru no wa
hontou wa nani mo shinjirarenai kara na no ka

bokutachi wa kanashimi o shoi tsudzukete
kizu darake no sono sakini ittai nani ga aru no? oshiete

kanashimi wa futatsu ni yorokobi wa hitotsu ni
arifureta negai mo rei shita tenohira ga
tsukameru mono nante mou nani mo nai no ni
bokura wa doushite yume o mite shimaun darou

wasureta furi o suru koto ga dekite mo
hana no you ni wa karenai kara
hitori no heya tarareba o nan byakkai haki chirakashite
futari de ita ano toki yori omoi tsumete iru zutto

omoide wa kono mama mou fure takunai
sugoshita hibi sura utagatte shimau
bakada na bokura wa
fukou mo shiawase mo shotte iku yuuki ga
masani nakatta dake da

unmei sura konna ni mo giwaku to fuan ni michiteiru kara
jibun no sei ni shite mite mo raku ni nareru hazu nai yo
"ushinatta nochi ni shika kidzukenai" to iu kotoba o
iya ni naru hodo kiite nao kidzuke nakatta zutto

kanashimi wa futatsu ni yorokobi wa hitotsu ni
sore sura dekizu ni mogaite ita ne
wakari aeru koto nante honnno sukoshi dake do
sore demo hibi ga iroase nai no wa

kanashimi no subete o kakushite itanara
saisho kara bokura wa hika re atte inai to wakaru kara
futari de tsuke atta kizu no kazu ga
anata no hibi ni kawarimasu you ni
kawarimasu you ni